So whether you love me, or hate me, or have some mixture of the two emotions, come out and party for my birthday!
that's right, it's that time of the year.
time to booze it up!

Saturday night i will be out at clutch cargo's.
it's not the greatest place, but if you mention my name there is no cover.
and i am getting an entire bottle of booze to drink.
on the other hand, Sunday i am going up to the WAB.
this could be much cooler for many people.

So, whereever you choose, come out and see me!!

location: clutch cargo's mood: amused music: She Wants Revenge

please come out and celebrate the fact that i have finally made it through college!
there are drink specials, and if anyone would like to spin a set, let me know.
i am looking for a few people to play music through out the night.
but this is an open invitation to all!!
so bring people you like.
bring people you don't like.
bring people you know.
bring people i don't know.

see you there!!


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mood: accomplished

so how about clutch cargo's on saturday night.
no cover.
i get off early so we can hang out.
my house is only a few minutes away, so the party can continue there.
all you have to do is mention my name.

it's going to be totally sweet.
come join me.

location: wsu mood: finals

so glad i don't work retail.

mood: sleepy

as today is friday, this more or less concludes my first week of wretched craziness.
all and all, the schedual doesn't seem that bad.
but hell, i really don't remember much of it.

turns out my insane fatigue from the beginning of the week was more than just being slightly tired and feeling a little run down.
apparently i was basically running a fever of like 101 for three days.
really i had no idea that i was sick, or even running a fever.
i thought i had a headache.
and that i had a grueling schedual.
actually, i'm sure that didn't help matters.
in the end, i finally decided to consult someone when on wednesday i could no longer breathe consistently, or ingest liquids.
my throat was that swollen.
it was fucking hell even to swallow at any given time.

i haven't had strep throat in years!
but it was bound to come back at some point i guess.
i'm on medicine and feeling loads better!!
it's amazing how clear the world is again.
sometimes it's taken for granted.
again, i had no idea that reality had been altered for me.
semi delusional and still trying to work both jobs and start all of my classes.

why don't you people let me know when i am sick?!?
hehehe.
it's a sad state of affairs when i don't even realize it myself until it gets to, or close to, the worst point possible.

the whole adventure reminds me of my senior year really.
again, i thought i was just tired from going going going the entire month of october.
by the time i made it to the doctor's, they asked to put me in the hospital.
and if i had waited any more time, i would have had to have my lungs drained.
i had double pneumonia and was none the wiser.
what a strange kid i am.

well enough of this.
i wish work was over already.
what's shaking for the weekend?

mood: optimistic

it's hard to believe that an entire year has passed, that she has been gone of this world. altough it seems as if so much has happened, as to take up mulitple life times, it has been only one year. it's amazing to feel such extremes over the same situation. thesis and antithesis.

so this year, i was losing my composure. hell, i completely lost it. but i feel better now. not because i lost it, but because i was really made to think about it. and why i was losing it, and how unnecessary it really was. i finally feel at peace about it. about how things went down. about how things were before. and about how things will be ok now. there is a calm sense of acceptance. i really thought i had aquired this before, but it was a facade. this feels real. goodbye emotional trainwreck.

in closing, i thank everyone who had anything to say to me. collectively, i have determined a solution, though the particulars are a might abstract to convey. just know that i know that you have helped.

mood: peaceful

not necessarily, but at least one person can...
and that is me!!

through a weird and random sequence of events not only do i have a job that i have been looking for, but i was drunk and at a concert!!!

only shit this random happens to me, i think.

if you want details, call.
it's too long to type out it all out.

and i am also going out to luna tuesday night not only to celebrate my new job, but also nadjia's!!!!!
please join us one and all!!
and buy us drinks!!
and if anyone wants to dd for us, that would be much appreciated too!!!

mood: drunk music: goofy grin all over again

i will be coming home on saturday.


anyone wanna drive me home?

mood: distressed

compliments of lilmissbloo:

CAPRICORN: There’s always too much going on with you. If I was you, I would relax and accept the fact that having too many irons in the fire is the way you like it. In the next few months you will be out there a lot more, either because you hold a position of respect and power, or because of what you have to teach. Pay close attention to any Asian people that you meet. Somehow or other the Far Eastern influence is big right now. This could be because your growth depends on those spiritual traditions.


note: mood is for many other reasons.
           it really has nothing to do with the post.
            see i can multi-task :p

mood: aggravated

except that it was a couple of months ago,
and i missed that memo.
i finally recceived my copy today.

i hate it when i am the last to know.

mood: crushed

just thought i would let everyone know tentatively what the plans are the birthday celebrations this year. it can also include going away stuff too.

friday december 23rd
9pm-10pm
luna (free drinks to get us started)
after that
magic stick/garden bowl
for drunken bowling
after that (given that i am still walking or conscious)
city club
i have to dance at some point. and it might sober me up.


if you care, show up. if you don't, fuck off!!

any other details or personal time before or after should be directed this way.

mood: mellow

for anyone who hasn't heard any other way, i am throwing a party in my backyard on sunday, which is devil's night.
i invite you all to come.
you may even bring people, as long as they are not dumb.
there will be a keg, and for $5 you can drink as much as you want.
if you don't like beer, it's byob.

costumes bitches!!

the bonfire will keep you warm.

mood: blah

i am employeed!

mood: accomplished

heads or tails?

mood: contemplative

i'm home.
shoot me in the head.

mood: tired

you fuckin cunt.
you ruined my adventure, my once in a lifetime opportunity.

couldn't this have waited until i was home?
i was going to try to find you.
now i have the guilt.
you know better that to call that early.
what did you expect?
you were suppose to call back while i was awake.
a few measely fuckin hours later.

you fuckin cunt.
airfare is expensive.

i walked out and saw the mountains in the distance.
brilliant blue with white snowcaps.
you have ruined this image now forever.

will you be missed?
fuck if i know.
no more pain in the ass to deal with anymore...


rip-debra ann pelkey (smith, morgan, who knows anymore)

mood: blank

fuck you michigan....i'm outta here.
yay.

i was just informed that i will be driving the rv for nocturne while they are on tour!!!

whoo-hoot almost 2 months away from this state and i get to see the entire country while i'm at it.

life is absolutely swell right now.

i now have to put my nose to the grind stone and finish my smemster up early. every good event in life has it's consequences.
fuck it tho, i know i can do this!!!

mood: grateful

a touch of heartbreak...
a dash of disappointment...
throw in a gianormous stuffed dragon as a constant reminder...

it's all good for the soul, right?


...ouch...

mood: melancholy music: shattered pieces falling to the ground

well i have a job, and today was my first day.

highlights:
-matt forgot to order my shirt, i end up with a xl one (<--- we all know i dont fit into xl very well, it was quite a sight to see)
-working with cool people
-1st delivery, cement truck pulling out in front of me when i was already doing over 50mph
-2nd delivery on my way back, the road was all ice and i was going down a hill about to turn back onto the main road. coming around the corner was a large "budget" truck that almost took me out.
-apparently made decent tips

interesting time to say the least....hopefully it will not continue to stay so interesting. i happen to like my car fully intacted and me without bodily harm.

mood: accomplished

like staying in the shower til the water turns cold...
but still enjoying being in there...

mood: restless